Kinda, Sorta, Maybe Writer’s Block?

The most frustrating thing for a writer to experience is the inability to transcribe the message from the heart onto paper. Sometimes we struggle about what to write about, staring at the blinking cursor unable to come up with a string of sentences worth reading.

Other times, the content is there- jumping around our subconscious screaming to be let loose on the keyboard. But the feelings bubbling up inside just are too strong, too raw, too vivid to translate. They’re often times too intense to even sort through without having a physical reaction.

And sometimes life and situations require a hyper-focused period of time in life where it takes all of your energy to continue to stay afloat. When adulting requires your energy to be focused on the writing and projects that, for the moment, pay the bills. And by the end of the day after spending all day writing other messages, working to push other projects and spending the last waking hours of the day taking care of personal needs like summoning up the energy to wash your hair- there is nothing left to give to  the process of teasing out the ideas floating around the writer brain.

As much as I feel like a failure for not writing more essays or for taking a brief pause from writing my book, I have to remind myself- nothing lasts forever. In the not-so-far-away future, the pace of other areas in my life will return to a trot, rather than a fierce gallop that leaves nothing left for me to use. The holidays will not always be poking or irritating my barely scarred over emotional wound of dealing with family chaos. And the tiredness of life in general, from just having myself pulled, stretched and grown in so many ways this past year, will subside. While everyone knows about growing pains, what often times isn’t communicated well is the overall fatigue that accompanies it. The tired feeling after being in survival mode to adapt, often times unwillingly- while your muscles begin to unwind and your mind is trying to process ‘what did we just live though?’

But things I have done since over the past 3 months that will eventually be written about when the pace begins to even out in other areas of my life include:

 

  • My first solo vacation ever- to Disney World!

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  • Bought and successfully used a crock pot!

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  • Made my own Thanksgiving Eve dinner that involved cooking a turducken!
  • Celebrated my 2 year anniversary at my full-time job- officially making it the longest I’ve ever been somewhere!
  • Voted for the first female presidential candidate on Election Day, then vomited when I woke up the next day realizing she lost to B-rated reality television show shmuck.

 

At least writing this is a step, a tiny step, to getting back into the swing of personal writing.

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365 things to do in 365 days

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I like making lists. Ever since I was a kid, it’s been a way to organize the chaos of my thoughts. Now that I’m older, it makes me feel accomplished to be able to cross something off physically. Also, it keeps me on task for when I’m distracted by shiny things.

This time last year, I made a half-hearted attempt to do 25 unique things before 25. But I only gave myself a four month window and all hell broke loose unexpectedly during that time period. The few things I was able to squeeze in was really fun, and I did a lot of them throughout the year passed the 25th birthday.

So I decided to revisit that idea, but to raise the bar a bit. I’m challenging myself to do 365 things in 365 days. This is a way for work the skills I’ve been putting off, seeing the sights I’ve been sorely neglecting in my own backyard, writing the pieces I’ve been mulling over and simply brooding my experiences. Over the course of the next 365 I’ll be writing about the adventures/experiences of checking off each item. And I’m hoping that I’ll be able to drag along friends and family to join the fun- as well as making new friends along the way.

Here is a sampling of some of the ideas:

  • Visit the Mutter Museum 
  • Re-read Are You There God It’s Me Margaret 
  • Try Salt Room therapy 
  • Send a care package to a solider overseas
  • Bake a pie from scratch
  • Learn how to change a tire
  •  Try Vietnamese food
  • Ride a zip-line
  • Pop a bottle of champagne  
  • Wade in a creek

il_570xN.483656551_25qxTo view the full list, click below. It’s broken down into categories. If you have any ideas to add to the list, or ways to check off one of the experiences, let me know! And if you want to join me on any of the adventures, even if I don’t know you, drop me an email at patrice.bendig@gmail.com or comment below! This challenge is to open myself to new experiences- and the more the merrier!

Hopefully you’ll follow along as I blog, tweet (#365in365)  and attempt this insanity.

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